Diri yg semakin hilang...

Ari ni clinic memg xikut plan, pg td assist mina utk prostetik tp smpi k0l 12 aku nk amek impression pt crown..kne basuh n perli ngn die gak tp alhmdllh die stil nk keep on the treatment as aku mintk maaf ngn die n xkn bg LA smpi numbkn die punya nerve smpi muscle spasm..ntahla mayb injection trlmpau dkt ngn nerve smpi die xleh bkak mulut 2-3 ari lps aftr treamtnt yg xsbrp bt kt die..die siap ckp nk saman tp nada bersel0roh agaknye..yela kotla die sesaje je nk bt aku takut perghh memg psyco gakla pt neh..nk bt cner naseb die agaknye dpt muscle spasm as mayb slh satu sbb injection tuh..haru t0l!!

Oke,pastuh pt untk ptg plak xbole dtg as ade emergency meeting plak..huh memg da xde semangat t0l, pastuh last2 minit plak dapat tau doc yg in charge utk aku nk present plak ade meeting so memg nasebla jugak sbb pt aku xpyah dtg susah2 as doc yg aku nk tuh xde ptg neh. Tp gratefully 2nd pt ptg bole dtg awal as ngadu sakit gigi..ingtkn gigi class II die jd endo tp harapan meleset je as die sakit sbb mknan stuck..bile check ade cavity baru dala yg dlu punya belum betmpal agih sbb waktu die bole dtg xsame ngn time aku nk bt kt die..last2 aku simpan jela die as die ckp die akn bgtau klo die sakit gigi je..susahla mcm neh klo nk siapkn schedule memg perit especially cons..memg aku prob ngn cons yg tinggi demanding tuh..tp doc mcm xnk je layan aku td utk present yg update treatment planning tp tgk muke kesian aku die t0long gak. “U bt keje unmanageable mcm maner sy nk passkn present awk ms pn da kol 430ptg”..n aku rs mcm bebal n bangang je dpn die mcm aku neh xtau paper nk bt.. “Come on la xkn u nk bt tmpalan kt distal die..i think enamel die yg fracture bkn caries as xde catch..u rs caries ke? Aku plak mwnjawab “Saya rs mcm caries bru nk develop as nmpk clinically black stain nk direct access xdpt sbb trlindung ngn gigi sebelah..”

Last kali doc tulis report gigi tuh utk KIV je..n aku mayb agak frust sbb pt end up ngn caries baru n endo molar tinggal harapan je..no feeling nk kt mau nanges air mata pn da kering kot ntahla xde perasaan paper pn bile doc sound mcm tuh..memg patut pn kne sound sbb unmanageable haha tp situasi yg dr pg td tuh mayb ade effect diri ini yg kononnye nk jd iron lady bole tahan segala bagai dugaan..tuh Ana yg advice tp owg rs luaran mayb nmpk kuat tp dlmn owg neh sgt2 lembut mudh scratch gak..xde simpn dendam kt saper2 pn as aku nk pk positive je..paper penentuan ku serahkn pd Allah..usaha smpi boleh n tawakal pdNya..

Hopefully esok n hari seterusnya aku dpt bt yg terbaek utk pt aku even though aku da mcm xckp nafas je skrg neh..Insyaallah verily after each difficulty there's a relief amin..